A Letter To Spring

Dear Spring,

You officially begin on Tuesday, and I’m rather excited. After a long, long, lonnnnnnnnng, dark winter (why is it still snowing in March?), I simply cannot wait for you to bring your sunshine.

I’m maybe not as desperate for you this year as I was last year spring, as this year I am in a pretty good place. But last spring was such a lovely time for me, so naturally I am super excited for you this year.

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My Confidence Makeover…

Something that I’ve always struggled with in my self-confidence. I’ve mentioned this before on my blog when I celebrated it’s one year birthday, but that was quite a while ago now. But, until recently, I didn’t actually realise how much my confidence has grown over the last year or so.

Take this photo for example.


This time last year I couldn’t even (literally) face a camera. Many of the photos I posted were pictures of the back of my head or (rarely) selfies. I just had absolutely 0 confidence in myself and my body, and I didn’t want those insecurities to be open to judgement on the internet.

However, I said in my Learning To Love Myself post that I wanted to start finding 3 things that I liked about myself in the mirror each morning. Whether that was as simple as wearing some sassy earrings for the day, or learning to accept my own reflection, I was determined to find something.

And, I found it a little hard. Some days, I’ll admit, I struggled to find anything at all that I liked. But, after doing this weird little ritual for a while, I actually found it making it’s way into my subconscious.

Now, I don’t have to stand in front of a mirror and think specifically about what I like in order to make myself feel better. Now, I do it without thinking. I’ll look in the mirror to do my makeup and find myself thinking about how good my skin looks today. Or I’ll check that my outfit goes in the mirror and think ‘wow these trousers look good on me’. I’ve finally started complimenting myself a little, and it feels good!


And, it certainly shows how much my confidence has grown in photos. This weekend whilst taking photos with Zack, I found that I didn’t feel self conscious. Even though we were in places where there were people around, I didn’t tell him to try and hide the camera out of embarrassment.

I felt happy and confident and care free, and I think it really shows in the shots that we got!

Something else that I often used to do (without realising) was blink whilst having my photo taken. I think this was a kind of nervous twitch, as it always seemed to happen when the camera clicked (much to Zack’s great annoyance). This also didn’t happen no where near as much as it has done in previous shoots, I just felt happy and relaxed!


Plus, we managed to shoot 4 outfits in 2 hours which is pretty good going for us! We didn’t have to spend hours getting the perfect shots for one outfit, everything just seem to come together and it worked really well!

So, essentially what I’m trying to say is that it worked! Forcing myself to find things that I like about myself has made me look for the good in myself, rather than focusing on the bad.


When reviewing the photos after our shoot, I found myself thinking ‘oh I really like my hair in this one’ or ‘this looks really cool’ rather than thinking about all of the things that I hate. It’s really changed my outlook on myself, and I’m really enjoying the confidence boost that it’s given me.


So, if you’re struggling with self confidence, why not try this technique? I’d love to hear if it works for you!


H x


Coconut Oil ‘Hacks’; Fraud or Fab? Collaboration with Higher Nature*

fullsizeoutput_c69I cannot be the only person that sees coconut oil life ‘hacks’ everywheeeere and, for quite a while now, I’ve wanted to test them out in a ‘myth busters’ style post.

So, I’ve scoured Pinterest and found some hacks that are pretty cool that I thought I would give a go in this post! Btw, I am actually a major coconut oil fan, but I only really using it for cooking instead of vegetable oil.

Higher Nature* were kind enough to gift me a pot of their coconut oil in exchange for this post! Their coconut oil is actually flavour and aroma free, so you get all the benefits of coconut oil, without the taste! Although I do quite like the taste of coconut oil, I can definitely see why there would be some meals that it just doesn’t go with, so this flavour free option is FAB. It’s also Vegan, gluten-free and certified Organic- pretty good! Ok, so let’s put it (and the hacks) to the test….


As I said, I am a major coconut oil fan when it comes to cooking. So, it’s no surprise that I LOVE this hack.

I tried cooking at a high heat for my stir fry, and actually found that this coconut oil, specifically, performs really well for this. Usually I have to turn the heat down to medium around half way through as the oil begins to burn, but this didn’t happen when trialling this oil! Plus, it’s flavour free which works great for my classic garlic and soy stir fry!

I also tried buttering my toast with the oil but, I’ve got to say, this hack isn’t for me! It wasn’t too bad, but I missed the taste of butter a little too much for this to be a permanent replacement hack.


Coconut Oil Bath Melts

This actually works really well! I simply melted the oil, added a few drops of my favourite moisturising Rosehip oil, and then set in the fridge (using a shot glass as I don’t have a fancy tray, oops!). One shot glass worth was actually the perfect amount for a nice soak, and my skin felt super soft afterwards! Continue reading “Coconut Oil ‘Hacks’; Fraud or Fab? Collaboration with Higher Nature*”


Let’s Talk About Cruelty Free Beauty (And Where I Stand)

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I originally started to write this post in June 2017 whilst I was on holiday in Greece. A fierce debate had broken out amongst the blogging world, and I wanted to have my say. I kept that post in my drafts, and then eventually deleted it, because I decided that my mojito-induced holiday ramblings were not appropriate for the seriousness of this topic. So, let me begin with the intention of this being a pretty serious post, with a bit of my own opinion (and a good old joke) thrown in here and there.


‘Cruelty Free’

I’ll be honest (and this is really terrible, so judge me all you wish), I had never heard of ‘cruelty free’ before I joined the big wide world of blogging. I knew that animal testing existed (hello, I have seen Legally Blonde 2!) but, in my naivety, I didn’t actually realise that it still happened. To me, it always seemed inhumane and cruel and, also in my naivety, I assumed that others would share my view.

Because of how utterly cruel it seemed to me, I just couldn’t comprehend it still happening, so I believed that it didn’t. And I sidled through my life wearing my hoola bronzer on top of my stay perfect foundation, and didn’t realise that animals had suffered for these products.

It wasn’t that I didn’t care; I didn’t know

Now, I have a few issues that I’d like to discuss regarding this in this post. I’m going to subtitle them with little headings, so feel free to skip to the one that interests you the most or read them all; whatever tickles your fancy.

Brand Transparency

This is, personally, my biggest issue when it comes to animal testing in the cosmetics industry. Part of the reason why I didn’t even know that it still went on is because brands simply don’t own up to it. For example, this is taken from a brand’s website who I used to really love.

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See? Very ambiguous.

Whilst claiming not to test on animals, this brand does admit that it sells their products in China. This means that these products are not cruelty free, because in order to sell cosmetics in China, they must be tested on animals by law.

Where you stand on this is completely at your own discretion but, personally, it makes me a little sad that these companies are claiming to be cruelty free, yet make the choice to sell in China in order to benefit (haha, see what I did?) their own profits. To me personally, if a brand was that committed to animal welfare, they wouldn’t choose to sell their products on the Chinese market because of their animal testing laws. But, ya’no, that’s just my logic and thought-pattern, and you are free to make up your own mind’s completely.


(And it’s a big but)

I don’t think that brands should be allowed to answer these important queries in a wishy-washy format in their FAQs section. I think it should be made much more clear to the consumer, as it just doesn’t seem fair that so many people are unknowingly purchasing goods that are contributing towards the animal testing industry because so many brands try to down play it.

You test on animals? Ok, that’s not very nice, and maybe it might put some consumers off of your products but, to be honest, GOOD! At least maybe then you’ll rethink your testing methods.

Seriously though, this wishy-washy ‘we care about animals’ FAQs thing that these brands are doing has gotta go.

Cruelty Free Influencers

Ok, first thing’s first, I wanna applaud you. You’re doing a grand job. You’re the reason I ever even found out that animal testing still exists. Give yourselves a pat on the back.


(again, a big but)

Some of you are a lil’ aggressive sometimes. And it can get a little intimidating.

There has been SO MANY TIMES that I’ve scrolled down my twitter feed and seen cruelty free influencers who have fab cruelty free content, being a little mean to people that don’t always agree with them. I think we gotta realise that an aggressive approach probably isn’t gonna work.

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Anxiety Update: Being a 20 year old who’s scared of nightmares

Photos taken by the lovely Abbey Louisa Rose.

Trigger warning: detail of mental health and panic attacks.

I didn’t wanna be doing another anxiety update so soon, but situations have occurred and my anxiety is bad. Not as bad as it can get, but not good.

Ok, so my nightmares have returned.

I haven’t really shared much about them before, but I get messages about how these posts help people, so it only seemed right to share what I am currently going through.

Whenever I talk to people about my nightmares, I don’t think they take me seriously. Nightmares are associated with the monster under the bed when you’re little, and crying and ending up sleeping with your parents. Funnily enough, I don’t remember having many nightmares as a child. But, as an adult, they are persistent and horrid.

And they make me feel so pathetic.

Sleep used to be my safe place when it came to anxiety. When I’d had an exhausting panic attack, sleep would be a comfort to me. However, the nightmares began around this time last year, and they did ease up for a while, but now they’re back and stronger than ever.

Photos taken by the lovely Abbey Louisa Rose.

Sometimes I have actual panic attacks in my sleep. It’s horrible because I feel trapped in my sleep and I can’t wake up. I don’t like it. How do you explain that at 19 years old your nightmares are your worse enemy? You just can’t.

But my nightmares are the place where my deepest, darkest fears are actualised and it’s bloody horrid. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

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Behind the Blog: Public Photo Shoot Fails!

So, I recently had a blog brainstorming afternoon with my lovely friend Abbey where we took a few photos in a local, public place (check out her blog, it’s great!). During this, we had a little bit of a weird experience, and Abbey came up with the idea of this post for me, because I have definitely had quite a few weird experiences whilst taking blog photos! So, without furtherado, here are the funniest experiences that I’ve had whilst taking photos in public places!

“Do you want a photo of both of you?”

This is a question that I DREAD when I’m out and about taking pictures! Thank you kind stranger for the offer, but I can hardly reply to your offer with “nah thanks, I just want pics of myself”.

The lady who tried to steal our pumpkin

Pumpkin picking pics litter our insta feeds during October, and mine was no different! Zack and I took a little trip to a near by pumpkin-picking field and poor Zack spent a really long time arranging them into a perfect heart for the gram. You should’ve heard him wail ‘NOOOOO’ when a lady tried to steal one, it was SO funny.

“Ooh what camera do you have? I have *insert name of camera*. Mine’s better. Mine does this, this and this. Mine has won me a prize. Mine has flown me to space. Can your camera do that?”

Omg, this is my pet hate. I take photos for my blog, and Zack enjoys taking photos; it’s a hobby. BUT so many strangers who are ‘camera pros’ see us with a camera and feel the need to comment telling us what we’re doing right/wrong. And once we got stuck with someone for about an hour (not even exaggerating) and he just wouldn’t stop chatting about camera stuff that we had no idea about. It wasn’t fun.

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Life Update; Starting Driving Lessons! (And Driving With Anxiety)

So, you may know if you follow me on social media that I recently started driving lessons. I know that driving isn’t a big thing for most people but, I’ve just turned 20, and I have officially put off learning to drive for a whole 3 years simply because people told me that I’d be bad at it. I might be bad at it, but at least I have finally found the confidence within myself to push myself to try.

I wasn’t going to write this post, or even mention driving on my social media, because I am SO nervous about it, and I haven’t even told many people that I’m finally having lessons. But, I also put it off for so long because of the same thing, and so I wanted to share this journey (however long it may be!) with you, mainly because I wanted to reach out to others who are also terrified, and are putting it off.

Everyone always told me that I would be a terrible driver. I crashed a dodgem once and sprained my wrist. Another time, I nearly ran a man over in a go-kart. These experiences combined with everyone telling me just how bad they thought that I was going to be, really put me off.

But, when I finally booked my first lesson, I actually felt a bit excited. Maybe I could prove everyone wrong. Maybe I could actually learn to drive. Maybe I would be a fantastic driver straight away.

Reader, I was not. (For the fantastic driver straight away bit anyway).

But, my instructor is kind and patient and has a sense of humour and doesn’t shout at me, which is exactly what I was looking for. He sees my mistakes as part of the experience rather than mistakes, and I find it so reassuring!

I had my first lesson last Thursday, and have had another one since. I’m planning to have two 2 hour lessons a week, so that’s 4 hours of driving. I think a few people close to me are worried that this may be a little too much, but I am SO nervous that I feel like I need longer in order to feel comfortable and gain my confidence! It’s  bloody tiring, I won’t lie, but it’s definitely the kind of set-up that works for me.

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Can you be in love at 13? Ageism in relationships.

IMG_6647Small disclaimer before we begin; in this post I am referring to relationships in which both parties consent and are of a reasonable age to do so. 

As someone who fell in love with my (now) fiancé at the age of 13, ageism is certainly not alien to me. I have mentioned it *a few* times on my blog before, with my ‘Getting married at 21 is like leaving the party at 9pm’- A Response post and my Engaged At 18: What It’s Really Like post, but I don’t feel like I’ve ever fully delved to the very bottom of the issue; ageism.

So, when I recently came across the below tweet from the lovely Rachel, I just knew that I had to write a blog post about it.

What is ageism?

The Oxford English Dictionary Online defines it as ‘Prejudice or discrimination on the grounds of a person’s age’.

As Zack and I are considered ‘young’ to be getting married, this is something that I’ve also witnessed. I’ve felt looked down on by the wedding industry as we’ve tried to plan, because there seems to be some sort of weird consensus that getting married young is wrong. It’s a confusing thought-path to me because, generally, the people that I know who got married at a younger age, are the people who seem to still be in love to this day.

Do I have a study to prove this correlation?

No. And I am too lazy to conduct one.

But, so many of my role-models and the relationships that I aspire to in my life began at a young age. Did this effect me when I fell in love? To be honest, I don’t know. I always wanted to fall in love at a young age, because I always felt ready to. I matured when I was very young, and I always believed that love had no age. Continue reading “Can you be in love at 13? Ageism in relationships.”


The Next 20 Years…

Hello, hello, hello!

So I know that I already published a post on my birthday, but that was a look back on what I’ve learnt in the last 20 years. This post, however, is more of a bucket list as it contains 20 things that I’m hoping to accomplish in the next 20 years as I thought it would be nice to look back on. So, without furtherado, let’s go..

1. Pay off my student loan

(I hope)

2. Get a job that I love

(I also really, really hope)

3. Have children

I’ll be 40 in 20 years, so hopefully I will have had kids by then!

4. Get married

Hopefully will be able to check this one off in 2020.

5. Visit Disney World (again)

I was 10 last time, so I’d love to go as an adult!

6. Have a house

Yup, I hopefully wanna own a house by the time that I’m 40!

7. Have a driving license

If I haven’t passed my test by the time that I’m 40, I may just give up.

8. Move in with my love

Hopefully also happening soon(ish)

9. Learn sign language

This has been a goal of mine for so long, but I just don’t know where to start!

10. Visit the Maldives

An ultimate life-goal!

11. Go on a Ferris Wheel

So I’ve been scared of these for years, but I’ve decided to try and conquer that fear.

12. Stay at the Shangri-La Hotel at the Shard in London

I don’t know why I want to stay here so bad, maybe because of the pretty insta pics.

13. Finish writing a book

Even if it never gets published, I’d like to succeed in writing one!

14. Have a dog

I’d really like a little pup!

15. Visit NYC

Another life goal for me!

16. Finish Gilmore Girls: A Year In The Life

I’ll be honest, I’ve been putting it off…

17. Read Pride and Prejudice

Yup, I’m an English student who has never read it

18. Visit Iceland

I really, really, really wanna go here.

19. Have a tattoo

I really hope that I’ve taken this plunge by the time that I’m 40!

20. Be happy

My biggest goal of all…



H x


20 Things I’ve Learnt In 20 Years


Today is my birthday! I am officially 20 years old and I have 20 years of experience in this wonderful world. Granted, 20 years is not too long, but as I enter the 20th year of my life, I wanted to document 20 things that I’ve learnt so far. So, let’s begin.

1. Looking after yourself is the most important thing. (You can’t pour from an empty cup!)

2. Some people simply aren’t worth worrying about.

3. You cannot (and shouldn’t) tell someone how to feel.

4. It’s okay to like being alone.

5. Love doesn’t have an age requirement (or limit).

6. Older people aren’t always wiser.

7. Books are the best way to learn empathy and compassion.

8. It’s okay not to have loads of friends, the ones that matter are the important ones.

9. Hard work doesn’t always pay off.

10. It’s okay to take a break sometimes.

11. Pressure isn’t always good.

12. Peeing after sex is the best way to avoid a UTI.

13. It’s okay for your beliefs and values to change.

14. Clubbing is not all that it’s hyped up to be.

15. Doing your makeup and making your bed every morning makes you 10x more confident for the day.

16. The biggest joy often comes from the smallest of things.

17. Naps are THE BEST THING.

18. Social media isn’t real.

19. Being your own best friend is completely okay.

20. It’s okay not to know where to go from here. You’re only 20. You’ve still got plenty of time to find where you need to be.

Thanks for reading, and here’s to the next 20 years!


H x