I’ll be honest, I didn’t know what to title this post. But I knew that I wanted to write it, so I hope that the title will do! I’m also not trying to offend anyone in this post, so I apologise if my terminology is slightly wrong and would really appreciate being educated otherwise! Basically, I’ve recently started being conscious of my lifestyle and fitness again.
As someone who’s always lived a really active life, I’ve definitely fallen off of the wagon these past 2 years. University life has taken over, and I’ve stopped exercising as much as I used to as well as eating a little more. And, I’ve become someone who I don’t recognise.
Yes, I have gained weight, but it’s not the weight particularly that bothers me. I’m bothered about how I feel on the inside. I used to love exercising and I used to love the buzz it gave me; and without that I’ve been a bit lost!
In terms of food, I’ve started to rely on crisps and snacks. I’ve also been eating really irregularly and just, in general, having a difficult time!
But, the problem is, that I didn’t know where to start. As someone having struggled with an ED in the past, I didn’t want to restrict myself too much, because I don’t want to be back in that place. But, at the same time, having no conscious awareness of my eating habits wasn’t really working either.
So, this summer, I’ve decided to have a bit of a reset.
I’ve actually been using the MyFitnessPal app to track calories, as it’s super easy to use! I haven’t been calorie restricting as such, I’ve been mainly using it to keep track of what I eat and to gain knowledge of what is actually in what I eat. For example, I’ve been greatly lacking in protein which is something that I wasn’t aware of, but now feel like I can have more control.
Having an ED in the past, control is something that scares me. I don’t want to give myself too much control, because I’ve been there. However, I also don’t want to be completely unaware of what I’m putting in my body.
And, in terms of exercise, I’ve been doing a lot more recently. Whilst I’ve been home over summer I’ve been going on 5 mile walks with my mum, as well as doing home work outs like squats etc, and I’m planning to join the gym when I get back to Leicester in September. I actually have always wanted to join a gym but I’m not sure that I actually know what to do in one, so I’m starting by going to a few classes included in the puregym membership which sound right up my street!
For me, this isn’t a weight loss thing. I know that may be a result of it, but it’s more of a strength thing. I’ve always danced, and I’ve got the muscles to prove it. But, as I haven’t done anything for the last 2 years, these muscles are slowly becoming weaker and weaker.
And I just don’t feel like me anymore. Like I said, I’ve always loved exercising but I just haven’t done it for the last 2 years. I’m hoping that I can get back to feeling like myself again by 2019!
I’m always happy to chat about this kind of topic so feel free to leave a comment or message me on social media!