I’ve started my second year at university. I’ve actually been in it for a few weeks now, and it’s going quite well to be honest.
I haven’t had a panic attack in quite a while actually. This is probably the longest I’ve gone in quite a long time, so I’m feeling pretty positive at the moment. I haven’t felt ill or even had cramps (my main symptom). I think this is partly down to the fact that I love the people that I live with. I feel safe here and happy and content, and it’s a really nice feeling.
I’ve also been meeting a few new people. I’ve put myself out there on my course a little more and started sitting with people who were just acquaintances before. Again, it’s pretty nice. I feel very content and a lot more confident in myself.
I’ve met up with one of my friends that I met through blogging (abbey!!) and it’s really nice to have someone there to discuss that side of my life with, rather than trying to hide it from people who I’m worried will laugh at me.
I mean, my anxiety hasn’t gone obviously. There’s no real cure, and I know it will always be there bubbling under the surface, but for now I’ve been having a good run.
I mean, there’s been a few times when I’ve felt myself slipping into a hole. But, I’ve been trying to concentrate really hard on my work and what I need to do to achieve this year, and so far it’s stopped me from sinking.
So yeah. I wasn’t going to write this update, because it’s quite positive rather than negative, but I realised that I only ever share the negatives when it comes to anxiety. So I thought it would be nice to write quite a positive post about how I’ve been feeling lately, for me to look back on when it’s a little tougher to remind me that I can do this and I can get through this.
Lots of love,