My name is Hayley. I’m 19 years old, I’m a full time student with 2 part time jobs and a blog, it’s nice to meet you.
I’ll be honest, I am quite real on this blog. I am honest and open most of the time, but there’s still sides to me that I don’t choose to show online.
Deep down, I am a very insecure person. I constantly seek gratification for my actions, and I am afraid of doing something wrong. I want people to like me, but I am not a people-pleaser. I’m somewhere in the middle, somewhere between wanting everyone to like me but refusing to change myself too much so that they will. And it can get a little confusing sometimes. So, I’ve decided to show in this post the REAL me, and what was really going on behind my chirpy Instagram posts.
TRM: I’m gonna have panic attacks for the whole night because it’s my first time using Air BnB and there’s creepy hooks on the ceiling, and my irrational brain cannot think of any other explanation other than that our hosts are serial killers.
TRM: I’m having the worst night ever and a few people liking my face might make me feel better.
TRM: This wasn’t even my breakfast, it was Zack’s that I stole to take a quick pic of. My breakfast was a standard scrambled eggs on toast because that’s the kinda gal I am.
TRM: I just took a quick pic of my MacBook on my bed because I couldn’t bare to leave the house today and I have no content, oops.
TRM: Aka, I haven’t even brushed my teeth yet today because I’ve had a night full of panic attacks and I am too exhausted to actually do anything other than lay and stare at a screen.
TRM: And coming home and sobbing all night because of everything that’s going on right now…
TRM: My life fell apart today but I’m going to talk about a bracelet and nail polish on Instagram to take my mind off of it!
TRM: Andddd to see my fiancé because I’ve been crying all week, missing him…
And there we have it! Just a few of the things that I don’t always tell you online. I mean, it’s not lying, but it’s definitely embellishment. I think we’re all guilty of this though, because who doesn’t try to make their life online seem better than their real life?
Thanks for reading.