Life Through TSG VS. The Real Me

Hello.

My name is Hayley. I’m 19 years old, I’m a full time student with 2 part time jobs and a blog, it’s nice to meet you.

I’ll be honest, I am quite real on this blog. I am honest and open most of the time, but there’s still sides to me that I don’t choose to show online.

Deep down, I am a very insecure person. I constantly seek gratification for my actions, and I am afraid of doing something wrong. I want people to like me, but I am not a people-pleaser. I’m somewhere in the middle, somewhere between wanting everyone to like me but refusing to change myself too much so that they will. And it can get a little confusing sometimes. So, I’ve decided to show in this post the REAL me, and what was really going on behind my chirpy Instagram posts.

LTTSG: “Cute home for the night!”

TRM: I’m gonna have panic attacks for the whole night because it’s my first time using Air BnB and there’s creepy hooks on the ceiling, and my irrational brain cannot think of any other explanation other than that our hosts are serial killers. 

LTTSG: “Have a random selfie from a week ago at 10pm because I can!”

TRM: I’m having the worst night ever and a few people liking my face might make me feel better.

LTTSG: “Who doesn’t love brunch? We went to Bill’s yesterday and it was dreamy!”

TRM: This wasn’t even my breakfast, it was Zack’s that I stole to take a quick pic of. My breakfast was a standard scrambled eggs on toast because that’s the kinda gal I am.

LTTSG: “We can work from homeeee”

TRM: I just took a quick pic of my MacBook on my bed because I couldn’t bare to leave the house today and I have no content, oops.

LTTSG: “Today I’m laying in bed”

TRM: Aka, I haven’t even brushed my teeth yet today because I’ve had a night full of panic attacks and I am too exhausted to actually do anything other than lay and stare at a screen.

LTTSG: “It’s my birthday today! This bridge is pretty, but unfortunately I’ll be spending my birthday at uni *sad face*”

TRM: And coming home and sobbing all night because of everything that’s going on right now…

LTTSG: “Rose gold faves! Adore so much. What trend are you loving at the moment?”

TRM: My life fell apart today but I’m going to talk about a bracelet and nail polish on Instagram to take my mind off of it!

LTTSG: “Cannot wait to wear these beauties at the weekend!”

TRM: Andddd to see my fiancé because I’ve been crying all week, missing him…

 

And there we have it! Just a few of the things that I don’t always tell you online. I mean, it’s not lying, but it’s definitely embellishment. I think we’re all guilty of this though, because who doesn’t try to make their life online seem better than their real life?

Thanks for reading.

Love,

H x

 

 

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7 Replies to “Life Through TSG VS. The Real Me”

  1. I really admire you for being so open and honest in this post, such a brave thing to do. I definitely agree that we’re all guilty at some point or another of portraying happier times on social media. I do hope things get better for you soon. You’re aj amazing person and you can get through it all. Always here if you want a chat! 🙂

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  2. Oh Hayley, I so so so admire you – this post is so important. I’m sorry you’re having a rough time, but I’m proud of you for opening up about it and for showing people that life on social media isn’t necessarily a totally accurate reflection.

    People get such bad FOMO from whats portrayed on social media – I think this is an amazing, brave and honest post, which will no doubt help lots of other people.

    Things will get better for you soon lovely I’m sure!

    Kate x
    http://www.findingkate.co

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  3. Although they’re pretty terrifying to write, posts like this are so important to show people that Instagram and even blog content is not always true reflection of how the person behind the screen is feeling! I would also genuinely put a positive spin or a brave face on my true feelings when writing a blog post or Instagram caption – sometimes it’s just easier than facing up to how you’re really feeling! I really admire you for your openness and honesty when pasting this, it’s a brave thing to do and have a lot of respect for you!

    Abbey 😘 http://www.abbeylouisarose.co.uk

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