You don’t read my blog, so who knows if you’ll actually ever read this? But, in my letter series, many of the letters have been deeply emotional but also, in a way, negative. It didn’t seem right to me to have a letter series without including a letter to you, and I am also hoping that this one may be slightly more positive than the others.
Where to start?
I love you, but you know that. But you taught me how to love. Seriously, even though you were my first love, I thought I knew what love was. But the love that you’ve taught me, honestly, is beyond anything I could have imagined.
I view you as being such a pure person, but I think that’s just because of the purity and light you bring to my life. There’s something so innocently fun about you and, even though I have matured whilst I have been with you, obviously as we’ve been together since we were 13, I’ve also learnt when it’s okay to be immature. And, when it’s okay to let go a little bit and just live.
My brain doesn’t work like yours, you know that. So, before you, I really didn’t know how to be spontaneous. I had to plan the simplest of things down to fine detail and worry about every single outcome involved. To an extent, I still do that now. But you’ve taught me that I don’t always have to, and it’s okay to let loose a little sometimes.
Honestly, I couldn’t imagine anyone in this world being better for me than you. I know how incredibly cheesy that sounds, but, as well as all of the things you’ve taught me about having a relationship, you’ve also taught me so much about myself.
The things we have been through together, already, show me that we can face anything in this world together. I am just so excited to marry you and I wish it were sooner, because I really cannot wait to spend a whole day celebrating our love and our relationship.
You saved me Z, you know that. I mean, I saved me, but your support is really what pulled me through. You know absolutely everything about me and I really feel as though I have given my soul to you.
I’m a romantic, I always have been. But I also have a very good way of knowing when something’s real.
I cannot wait to marry you and to begin the rest of our lives together.